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I'm trying something new tonight: it has to do with venting but I don't really want to classify it as such because I want to analyze what I feel. These posts are related to things that occur to me, either positive or negative. I want to dissect each idea to know the best way to sort things through. So, here is the first one:

Every one of us has moments, good or bad. If we are akin to someone then we want to share whatever happened to us with that person, either in experience or through words. There's no exception to this rule, it's just our nature. In fact, I tried to think of one but couldn't come up with a sane example.

Bad moments are the worse secret to keep: the negativity eats you up inside. You need to do something or tell someone what's going through you. When you can't do something then you really need to let it out. But is the person who you trust able to manage whatever bomb you throw at them? Do you know them that well? Do you think that maybe this can wait?

If you ask for empathy you should first be empathetic, at least that's what I try to do. I am living a situation that I rather not disturb anyone's great mood with my thoughts. I wait, and ponder: do I really want to share any of this with this person? Isn't it better just to solve things and then later comment on this, if at all necessary, and think of it as just something that went awry? I'm going with introspection and diligence for this one. I'm not getting anything but pity and a pat on the back if I start telling people how I feel, so might as well skip that for the after party.

I have to be honest: that would be just an excuse to make contact and not an effort to solve a problem.

Revisiting reblogging

It's about 1 AM right now and I should know better than being up this late when I have to get up to go to work and be a responsible adult, etc. Regardless, I felt the need to type in some words here and there since it's been a while and I've gone through some things that made me look back at the blog and realize why I started it.

Life has always been a journey to me. Even if I don't physically move, there's something inside that's dynamic. Each post is a landmark. I don't know how else to describe it. I don't know where or how I will stop and it's not important. There's a good variety of things to do and see. People to meet or observe. Hence the title of my blog.

Sometimes I wonder what it would be like to be raised differently or to live in a different country or environment. I often blame myself for the choices I make, which is not totally wrong since I'm never in a gunpoint type situation. However, I know decisions could have always been better and hindsight, as much as I hate it often prevents me from stumbling on the same rock (or boulder).

Blogging is not an escape for me. As much as I vent on here I have learned that dilemmas are to be treated personally and approached objectively. As difficult or boring as it may be to take this approach I believe that we can't take a path down a road with our emotions or personal interests guiding the helm, rather with a more general approach and fully aware (or as aware as the situation shall allow) of the consequences of said path.

Blogging is a means for me to record what I do. At one point it did become a means of venting but I have noticed this passed year that you don't need to vent out anything and just tackle the issue. My approach, because of what I do, is to be subtle and it will state the obvious without being condescending.

Here's to more post, with shorter times in between and to honoring our personal wishes, as long as they're not to place anyone in harm.

Later!